It's like a final chapter no one reads because the plot is over.

It's not like I really want to cry
I'd like to vomit. Seriously
We, people, are pathetic, little beings. stupid in so many different ways it is almost fantastic.
Find someone to be with only because you want to be free from loving someone else. No matter who it will be, no matter where he or she will be found. Doesn't matter to you, right? No matter how this person will feel about it and how the relation will turn out to be.
Yopu just want to PROVE. to SHOW us, and probably yourself, that you can forget and you are not chained to anyone, that you CAN find another friends. Better and not toxic friends. And you don't even bother to care about people on whose shoulders you've been crying your heart out through last few months. You just expect them to be happy for you. nevermind tbat your negative emotions and your strange ways of thinking intoxicated them and made them sick.
I don't blame you.
This is just so... pathetic. So human.
also...
talk all your time about what and who you hate and how you don't want to do something. Don't you, girls, have ANY life besides our uni? Like... seriously?
This is sad.
p a t h e t i c
I think I'm gonna vomit.



...
„You seem incredibily faraway to me, like someone on the other side of the lake. A dot so small that is isn’t male or female or young or old; it is just smiling”
(Miranda July, "the swim team"

London Bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down

Just watch your steps, baby. The line is very thin, you should be carefull. Or you will fall down with this bridge.
Dance, dance, dance
And watch your steps.

Love myself better than you, I know it's wrong, so what should I do?

How should I interpret this "cool and lonely style"? But ok, probably I don't want to know.
We are happy, egoistic people.
Good night.

April is the cruelest month

How much Elliot had to drink to write "waste land"?
Hangover.
Like... seriously. First time since December I'm suffering due to intoxication. God. I almost forgot how it feels. I just wanted to smoke some hookah with friends, I didn't want to drink wine my father produced, I didn't want to add this wine to sheesha instead of water, I didn't want to make green jelly. I didn't want to have hangover, I don't deserve it.
I'm genius. I can piss off my mother only by going to kitchen to get some water and answering few questions. I just told her that I have no idea how to make printer work, I've got hangover and I'm going to Katowice on weekend and I was hundred percent sure I told her about it before. All of theese are true.
And well, I received good news yesterday. I'm glad. I don't like to watch things fall apart and I felt terrible being involved and not involved at the same time.
On the other hand... There are people who seem likeable only when they are in their downs. Gregory House for example.