sweet, sweet, sweet, used to be so sweet to me

And something called 'bitter victory' took place. I've shown my poetry teacher that I'm not stupid and I deserve her respect. So what?
Part of my old grupu didn't pass exams from descriptive grammar and probably they will have to takie 1st. year course one more time. This sucks. Really. During all school period I had lousy classmates, and now, I have to part with people who Ilike and respect over and over again.
And some poeople even don't care to ask, what's up in my world, even though we had no contact during last few days. Nevermind them. Just nevermind.
I've been wondering... some books like "We, children from banhoff Zoo", or polish "pamiętnik narkomanki" were written to shock and show kids that taking hard drugs is evil. But what if somebody would start to consider the idea of close and regular meetings with needle after reading them? That would be delightfully ironic.

run where you''ll be safe, to the garden gate

We know it. We can already feel it. The end of the season
End of summer. It was a good one anyway.
I'm sitting in the garden, eating grapes, reading, wondering, how this end will look like.
Sunny and peacefull or full of storms and rain? I like the first option, it seems to be more suitable, more convinient. We'll see.

- It's a brand new day, what should I do? - Kill yourself

Geez -.-
Srsly I should take something that would help me calm down. Pennyroyal tea or whatever. Or just go and see good psychologist.
Since... I don't know, last Wednesday I'm annoyed and anxious almost all the time. My parents are irritating, my grandma is... my grandma, you know. People on the streets are stupid, people in tv are just pathetic, some of my friends are on late holiday, some are back in school, some are ignoring me without any special reason, some are just being themselves. For example my friends from uni decided, that they want to retake poetry exam at the very end of the month. Since this exam is the main reason of my irritation, I want it to be over as soon as possible, but they have also other exams to pass and well, I have only this one and I should pass it without problems because I'm reading stupid poems which are not even written in english.
This. is. so. unfair. Just because they were too lazy or careless to pass them in June, doesn't mean that I have to suffer and grow more and more anxious.
And I lost very important letter from library today. And I'm not feeling like looking for it.
Yeah, yeah, I know, life's a bitch and then you die.
Peace, love and... there is no such world like 'aronia' in english. Stupid country.

Wake me up when September ends

Because September will be long, cold, poor and full of english poetry. Everybody loves english poetry.
Yes, Now I understand what was Green Day singing about. They were student's and they wanted exams to be over.
At this point I'm too lazy to learn, to work, to think about studies, to write. I just want September to be over as soon as possible.
And I quit smoking. On Friday. And today I asked some guy in the pub for a cigarette. Red Malboro, mmm. And tomorrow most probably I will be drinking and smoking. Perfect.
No, I'm not depressed. I have this feeling of stagnation. Lack of creativity.
Or whatever

Peace, love, candles!